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Immanence
Since this has gone into diary mode, I should mention I’m very happy with my girl. It’s all just so comfortable. I filmed her yesterday and watching her on my ipod I feel like it’s a female actor playing my parts.
It feels right. It feels “healthy” too, in a way my relationships with borderline women (all my previous relationships have been with borderline women) never were. I don’t need her to be happy. She doesn’t need me to be happy. I really like her. She really likes me. It’s just as simple as that. No expectations, no anxiety, no fear, no suffering.
Happiness. It feels “healthy” because it feels like stuff will still be effortlessly good when the early-relationship passion cools off.
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“estimated 30 secs reading time”? How about 30 minutes staring at the screen with a big smile on my face? Does that count?